Cyanotic /

Beta Blocker

I haven't slept in so long.
It feels like weeks.
My mind's in overdrive now.
My muscles atrophied.
In fear of all the angles.
All the reasons I can't breathe.
Never sure if I can come away remitting this dependency.
In constant fear and doubt of death and all unsure.
I need something to calm my nerves now.
Nothing that the drugs can't cure.
A total plague of worry.
In need of logic's reason.
Do I want these sedatives to settle all my doubt?
Not sure of side effects or repercussions anymore.
Not sure if I want to feel the psychotropics anymore.